Dismantling Spider Webs
I am NOT a poet. I wrote horrid, melodramatic poetry in high school and occasionally, I will write cornball poems in my husband’s anniversary or birthday cards. But one of my characters decided she was a poet.
Lorelei (from Dismantling Spider Webs) broke off an affair with her lover after her husband died. While she mourned the husband she had demonized in her head, she also struggled with the lingering after effects of her extramarital affair.
Lorelei wrote this poem:
Good Night Kisses
As slumber edges away rational thought Wisps of my lover’s last kiss visit Pulsing tension on my bottom lip, quiver Neck is measured by tongue widths Ear lobe warms from tingling frost bite Eye lids are sealed with a smooth seal Kisses–phantom and fading echoes–say goodnight.I have no standards to judge poetry. If it is bad, feel free to blame Lorelei. If there is any worth, consider it a fluke.
Are you a poet? What poems speak to you?
Dismantling Spider Webs
November is NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month), which makes it my favorite month of the whole year!
As I approach my fifth year, I have found there are five distinct phases of pre-NaNo drafting and story percolation.
Giddy Excitement
My novel topics usually come to me in fits and starts. Experimental short stories or a big “what if” question can spur a novel topic. Dismantling Spider Webs, 2009’s novel, was founded on the question “what if the spouse you were cheating on died? How would you get forgiveness?”
However, this year’s novel, (working title) Zone Trippers, smacked me upside the head! A cacophony of characters and scenarios seemed to formulate in my head instantly. I suddenly understood what J.K.Rowling meant when she said Harry strolled into her, fully formed.
Overwhelming Unqualification
The second stage for me is always complete despair.I knew nothing about widowhood when I started Spider Webs. I wanted to do the topic justice–touching on every emotion and every problem a new, young widow faces.
Zone Trippers has its own stumbling stones. My characters find themselves spread out all over the world, having to adapt to their abrupt environments. I can research the slums of Calcutta and the factories in Belarus all I want but it easy to feel hopeless when I consider the sheer depth of what I do not know.
Diligent Research
After downing several chocolate infused reinforcements, I start researching.
For Spider Webs, I confounded the librarians by special ordering books on home improvement, how to have an extramarital affair and how to survive widowhood. I am sure they talked about me behind my back!
I am currently researching the nature vs. nurture debate, medical holidays, epidemiology, human trafficking and various obscure countries. I will never finish by the end of October but I will hopefully gain enough information to create a starting point for the book.
Pregnant Pause
I am an outline writer. I have a bare bones spreadsheet, outlining each of the major scenes of the book. But most importantly, I must know my characters. I have complete character sketches complete with photos for each character–major or minor. I am purposefully in choosing their names and their back story. Without their motivations, I can’t begin to write about them. Since the setting is often crucial to the story, I need that information written down as well.
All of these preparations are percolating in my head until I write them on index cards. Then I will rearrange and throw out cards while I write my spreadsheet. During the editing process, I tend to bring out the Post It notes so I can move the story chunks around.
The last two weeks of October has my fingers itching to start the new book.
I feel ready.
I am anxious.
I am impatient.
But because I want to follow the rules of NaNo, I don’t commit a single word until the Kick Off party. The flood of word that follows sets me up for an euphoric first two weeks of NaNo.
Hard Work
I have probably wrote the book ten times in my head before I commit the words to paper. Once the words take on ink and find a home on pulp, new surprises abound. I remember in Holiday Cards, the doorbell rang and I had no idea who was at the door. In Dismantling Spider Webs, I completed the whole second draft before I realized my protagonist was adopted–therefore driving most of her actions.
I am excited to see where Zone Trippers will take me. I have a plot. I am getting to know my characters quirks and flavors. The rising action has been decided but the ending remains a mystery–even to me.
This is the lure of NaNoWriMo–the bubbling thoughts, the new friends who live in your head, the Panera’s bagels and oceans of coffee, the paragraphs that snake across your computer screen and the heft of a printed novel in December.
Have you ever NaNo’ed? Care to join me?
Dismantling Spider Webs
Editing has turned out to be a tangled, complicated experiment. And my only defense is $5 worth of colored Post It Notes.
When I started Dismantling Spider Webs (DSW) last year, I had a fully fleshed out outline with all my sub-plots, character motivation and satisfying conclusion. It was condensed to a clever Excel spreadsheet and everybody fit nicely into their cells.
Darren of Wordsworth and editor extraordinaire, ate noodles with me and gave me all sorts of fun ideas on what could happen. He helped shape the ending and made several astute modifications to my original trajectories.
Prior to starting DSW, when it was still incubating in my mind, I took a writing intensive with novelist, Katrina Kittle. Her insight on dialogue, plotting, tension and motivation helped to poke holes in my outline. And I heard her voice as I wrote, guiding me towards less exposition and more authentic dialogue.
Writing DSW was effervescent! The characters ran willy-nilly across the pages, surprising me with thing they said and pranks they pulled. Three characters fell off the page, never to return again. One character begged to have her own book. (I am seriously considering her request.) And even in its sloppy, messy conclusion, I had a good rough draft.
But it is entirely prohibited from human consumption. Like uncooked puffer fish, it might kill you if you read it in its unfinished state. But there was promise there–buried under rudimentary words and cliche. With proper editing and several red pens, I dreamed it might be redeemed.
Enter the editing phase
I wish I liked editing more. When I am actually doing it, it’s not so bad. But the process makes me feel stupid.
I know these characters intimately. But I can’t remember if I referred to Lorelei’s adoption on page 12 or page 32. Is her nickname explained by Chapter 9 so can I use it in Chapter 10? Did the reader know her hair was long before I had her cut it off in a pivotal scene?
When I started DSW, Lorelei hadn’t been adopted. She did things with a certain lack of motivation. But after letting my brutal (but kind) friend, Jeanne, smack around my plot and characters, I realized she needed a defining reason to act the way she did.
So now there are new motivations, better designed characters, a few condensed characters, a reordering of plot points and more scenes to write. The only way I can keep it straight in my head is by diagramming it in Post It notes.
I am still holding onto the thread of hope that DSW is redeemable. And I sincerely hope this isn’t all just a “good learning experience.”
And I hope CVS doesn’t run out of Post It Notes.